Saturday, June 19, 2010

Hybridizing a newspaper and a blog

Ever since my childhood days, I’ve always had a fetish, a craze, a rage for perhaps the cheapest, the divinest, the godliest and the most frequently served service at my house- the Newspaper. Oh Yes! My voracious liking for the ‘Voice of the Nation’ began with me being awe-struck and at times amused by the ‘Picture(s) of the day’, the caption contests and the Garfield and Dennis the Menace series (Oh com’on, I was just too little to read on ‘heavier things’!). With more and more of reading some sense and reading the sensational, I switched over to the burning hot and burning red ‘front page’, before shifting to sporty columns and ultimately ending at the elite editorials, the ‘Comments’ and the ‘Think-overs’. I could still remember those hasty mornings, when I used to literally gulp down some disemboweling facts and figures with the glass of milk I emptied down to the full, unaware of the school bus which had already been delayed because of my hard-core habit.

Slowly and gradually, I was taken aback by some blooming blogs, bucketful buzzes and tickling tweets and found ‘My Space’ in the virtual world, only to savor a sudden down pour of some more novel ideas and exhilarating personal experiences and to relish a ‘Follower’s burden’! I wonder if any burden could ever be so amazing, so satisfying and so enchanting. On the whole, the older-but-still-in-use forms of fury (newspapers) with an electronic-touch lead to a power-packed YOU, verbally, intellectually and knowledgably.

Behold! Hope you like surprises for I might leave you with your jaws dropped down! There’s something which is as popular and old as a newspaper and as widespread as a blog. From the past few days, I’ve been noticing some strange scribblings. The most interesting part is that these writings are neither a part of any publication, nor a blog or not even a splog! Oh no-no! I’m not talking about the sacred writings on the historical walls, since those alien scripts are beyond my cerebral reach. I tend to remain on the simpler side here. Well, I’m talking about the scrabbles, the scratchings and the doodles devised by the common man, just to express his feelings, emotions, sorrows, miseries, happiness, elation or whatever comes to his mind, with the ’public walls’ serving the dual purpose of a canvas and an easel( Maybe, that’s why Facebook too has a ’Wall’). It’s actually a nice- little publication where you make a note and leave it ‘public’! Another fact is that you yourself are the reporter, writer, cartoonist and the editor of this publication. Plus you don’t have to worry about the regularity of the editions since you are not ‘officially’ engaged in such an activity. Write whenever some solid stuff strikes your skull. A vast writing space is waiting for you. You just need to escape your ‘future readers’ ’ eyes while writing. Isn’t that adventurous too? You might be thinking this is somewhat similar to the internet blogs. But these ‘Public blogs’, what I like to call them, are better since they are accessible and readable to those who don’t even know the A,B,C of computers….actually the C,C++ of computers, I should say.

Talking of my age, I’m surrounded with so many such blogs in my university. Whenever we’re having a boring lecture (Oh please! When don’t we have one?), out comes a writing tool and a public blogger is born. He with his ‘creativity’ runs this tool only to add to the beauty of the frail wooden desks. Every now and then I come across such inscriptions and some of them make me smile, some make me giggle while the others make me guffaw (No bad thoughts please). I can identify a potential-philosopher, a cool dude, a good-for-nothing fellow, a geek, a despo or a nerd from these writings…no need to give your profile information separately.

Getting out of the university, I can see some love stories engraved on the trees, where the names of the ‘creators’ are carefully contained within the boundaries of a heart-shaped structure, not to forget the Cupid’s arrow, dear. The lovers certainly seem to be ‘brave’ enough to screech a ‘heart’ on the heart of a silent biomass. But traditions and customs are made only to be improvised later on. Similarly, such activities of graffiti and street art, when given the aid of lustrous, glossy and shiny spray paints, attain a more modern and a gen-next look. The territorial extent of such blogs seems endless, taking in railway stations, bus terminals, planks, pillars, boulders, rocks and not even sparing the public toilets!(Best place to flush out your frustration.) 

I don’t know if you’re allured into becoming such a blogger after reading this, especially the ones who like to decorate themselves with the title, ‘anonymous’. I’d personally not recommend this kind of activity to anyone, which though having the pros of a newspaper and a blog has its own cons, the major being damage to public property. But one can’t deny that such kind of ‘media’ is really cheap. Even cheaper than a two rupee newspaper:p    

Sunday, June 13, 2010

He left me....only to be frenzied some more!!

Strained relationships seldom last long, a thing I’ve learnt over the past years of my life. Those spits and spats, slurps and smacks, cricks and cracks; one day or the other overpower and ultimately extinguish the dying-to-die-out flames of failure. SWOOSH!! The game gets over. The boots are hanged. The knots are undone. Divergent paths are chosen. No more interference. No more disturbance. Nothing!
 My monotonous expressions point to the end of a unique relationship involving human and anti-human forms of life. As expected, the human form represents me, my self, my soul (Always safe to take the main lead and humiliate your-self to any extent you want to) and the anti-human form makes up for the mirage of mathematics.

Chronologically, my almost 20-year old association with mathematics ended on 22nd May, 2010, at exactly 1200 hrs, when the itchy examiner (really itchy) snatched away the Optimization Techniques answer sheet from me. Clarifying to the non-non-medicals, OT, as we people ‘used to call’ this subject, is nothing but some more mathematics, presented to you in some more annoying and some more fretful form. Continuing after the disdainful act of the examiner, I felt an enormously heavy load being taken off my slowly-wearing-out shoulders. My long lasting battle with my greatest enemy ever had just ended. My life had just tasted LIFE. I’d now no longer be droning on the sad, somber and murderous melancholy of mathematics. I’d now no longer be: irked by the innumerable iterations, aroused by the awful algorithms and numbed by the noxious numbers. Heaven! Whoa!

But was it really a whoa-moment? Was it that heavenly?  Did it really deserve such a celebration? An elation? A jubilation? Not really! Sad but significant to mention here, I was not the one who ended up on the winning side. A grace-saving statement, if any, to quote would be that I ended up on the learning side. It seemed as if my unfathomable foe marched out of the battle-field with head high and leaving me with enough to cry after making sure that I had nothing more left in me to face him but a bruised body, a scarred soul and a pitiable panorama. The great Goliath glided away un-manned, un-chained, un-tamed, showering a few drops of mercy on me.

Bringing the past to the present, I remember falling down the wagon every now and then, struggling with crude concepts and eerie estimations. The algebra anguished me, vectors vandalized me, coordinate killed me and the ratios and proportions ruined me. Not leaving behind, geometry jeopardized my left-over chances of success. But ‘probability’ gave me some solace, just because I started with concentrating on the text book, but ended up tossing coins and rolling dices, just to get a better understanding of the topic! Practical approach?

Reaching the upper rungs of the ladder of gaining knowledge, the grudges got intense and professional. With engineering mathematics knocking at my doorstep, my nightmare confronted me in bits and parts, the first being Mathematics-I, followed closely by Mathematics-II. The two together appeared to me as a Hollywood movie series, where the sequel is all the more complex and complicated than the starter. The devastation seemed to be unending with some exclusive math, Numerical Analysis and OT still waiting for me. Each and every step of mine now shivered even more. Every minute now my heart missed a beat. But I treaded on somehow.

And now I stand here in the present, exhausted and intoxicated by the mere thoughts of a hefty past, expecting a brighter and a balanced future. A part of my mind says me to relax since I won’t be facing that old maniac anymore, not at least for the coming two years. Another part tells me to be even more cautious from now on, for we may meet again. Maybe my mental tormenter has given me some time to heal, some moments to mend myself. Maybe he’ll rip me off with even more strength and even more brutality the next time. A dilemma now dazzles me, if he’s set me free only to be caught again? Or he’s had enough of me? There’s also a possibility that the ‘time out’ may be an attempt to do me out of my wits, since I’d be thinking of his next move over and over again and become a bait to my own madness!

 Nevertheless, I hope to give him a tough competition at the next and final face-off. It may not be today, may not be even tomorrow. But a defeat still needs to be avenged. A debt awaits to be cleared. A calculation stalls to be solved.           

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Acts in Waiting

With the sun sending out a clarion call loud and clear, signifying the termination of yet another tempting dreamy torrent, which might otherwise lead to a perilous procrastination, it’s time to let loose! It’s time to be a part of a seemingly inimical but still widely followed phenomenon all over the world, called LIFE. You never know what she’s got in for you today. She might surprise you with some sweet successes or humiliate you with forgettable failures. Curious by nature, as a typical human is, you are driven by a Pandora’s desire to find, relish and exploit this hidden treasure.

In this process of ‘discovery’, you might…in fact you’ll definitely encounter an uncountable number of people having different beliefs, mindsets, intellects and ethos. But out of this lot, there are only a few whose memories in our lives for long tend to stay...those who brighten our lives, otherwise grey…and those whom seeing we stately sway.

What’s actually the reason behind such revered reminisces? Why is it that we remember those godly-gleaming faces even though we don’t know their names (forget about the religion they belong to)? How come their mere thought makes us jump up with joy? Well, the thing can be as simple as an act of alchemy, an act of benignity or an act of co-operation, which those strange saviors performed for us one fine day. The thing can be even simpler as a day of their life, they gifted to us, just to make our lives bigger and better. And in return, these people had no complaints and no demands, since the ends they achieved by doing so were ultra-satisfying.

Numerous number of times, such acts await our arrival. We just need to distract ourselves (positively) from the tiring and unending journey and grab the opportunity with both hands to be included in the above mentioned ‘class of nobles’. These can truly make a life, a better life to liveJ

Retrospect your life, purify your soul,
Imagine a human with humanity as a whole.
Work life, shun sins, stop hating,
Just once try out these Acts in Waiting.